I LOVE TYPE

Especially when I get them for freeeeee


This year, I vow to dedicate myself to growing more as a Graphic Designer. Its been a struggle in my past to try to incorporate "graphic design" lifestyle. This year, it'll be different. I will vow my time to more of myself, to more of the creative me... and for once... follow through with my creative concepts.

This year, it's not just about spiritual findings; it's going to be about finding my creative spirits.

I LOVE DESIGN!

Check out > Charmaine Olivia. I absolutely love her paintings!

I love these colors! Gray & Orange!

Fade Into You

I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath that's true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life
You go in shadows
You'll come apart and you'll go black
Some kind of night into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what's not there.

Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew

Some day you'll know

Be who you want to be and say what you want to say. We learn best when we make mistakes.

And to that, some day you will know what it meant. Life's happening doesn't so much matter in the now, but matters the most later. So be who you want to be and say what you want to say. We learn best when we make mistakes.

Where to now?

So... A LOT has happened in the past couple of months that I haven't been here. I got the internship at Blanks/USA. Granted, it taught me a few good things about the working world which is definitely mission accomplished. I can't say I love it or hate it either. I've met fun people here. I have a good month before I leave here.

I'm glad a took the step up in life and made a change but after this internship, I have a bag of worries to carry: Do I go back to school? Or find a new job? How much time have I got 'til I have to pay off my school loans? How will I even pay it off with no job? Etc.

I must say I've attuned myself to the "Go to work-come home-eat-sleep" deal. And I did finally get to just enjoy some ME time instead of having to do projects for school, fill out paper work here and there, and jumping here and there with other pain-in-the-ass priorities etc.

And lately I've been trying to get on with MY projects: more painting, framing my bedroom walls with my favorite photographs, buying shelves and re-staining/painting thm etc. --more so the interior design stuff. I've also learned a great deal about freelancing; NEVER SELL YOURSELF FOR LESS. Some people just have no idea how hard Graphic Designers work on a project etc. Most of the time they don't mention a pension and leaves you at an awkward state about the project and/or throw a project out there to you with out considering what you already have on your plate. Sorry, if we're just acquaintances and you can't respect that then forget it and don't waste my time because TIME to ME is PRECIOUS.

Anyway, our 4 year anniversary is coming up on the 4th of this month. (Should I consider that our GOLDEN anniversary yet? lol) I hope to do something special because the previous years we hardly celebrated them. Shouldn't it be extra special this time around? I'm thinking I should do the planning because... MEN... what do they know about romance?

Is it just me?

If its one thing I do know in this life, loving you was the best thing I could do.

When I met you,

The first time when I met you,
I saw something,
beyond any doubt,
different.

That first touch, kiss and look on your face set a warm sense of feeling that tickled deeply inside of me, penetrating my weakened soul.

I was alive.
I finally awoke from a dead dream I was living in.

That wired feeling I found had came from the look in your eyes. I saw your soul. I felt that we belonged together and that finally, I found what I was looking for; I was finally home.

In Search of Clarity.

Just got back from the gym: Ran 2 miles, Yoga ♥ and extreme p90x ab ripper. :) late night grocery shopping and then late night snack, (dont worry I was good: carrots w/hummus. Brie w/grapes, half a roma tomato with olive oil, salt and peppa!) Now chillen with some chamomile tea, gonna shower, light a candle, read and go to sleep.

Tonight, I felt at ease. I centered myself with the present moment and actually did something that I wanted to do. And it was absolutely simple! I love it. Even though on the side, I'm going through a rough patch with a significant person in my life, I feel like what I'm doing is right. I feel good, and I trust the energy within where the universe is taking me. Sounds hippie, I know, but I'm on that quest to soul search again. I need to find that genuine high, that clarity to strengthen my soul. So, with my tea in hand, Cheers, to a new journey...

Gonna go take a shower now.